Monday

It’s dark outside and you’re laughing and you’re wearing that dress that you’re always wearing in my memories of you and we are all sitting on the porch stairs of James’s house and we are all laughing and you have a cigarette in between your fingers and it’s been burning for far too long and you let out a yell as it burns your fingers and we all laugh and so do you and I kiss your fingers and Emma gets jealous because she’s been drinking and Henry gives her a kiss on the lips to make her feel better and its midnight now and we aren’t tired and we decide to stay up all night again and its beginning to get cold because autumn is hear now and I get so sad when I think of you and I wonder if I made the right decision after all.